I have some news.

Well, dear readers, the unexpected has happened. This time there is a real reason for my recent absence on the blog. It is something that has irrevocably changed my sex life forever. Something I can’t go back and do over. Something that scares the hell out of me.

I’m pregnant.

I’ve been married to Jack for coming up on 10 years. For the first 6 years we didn’t use protection or birth control pills (this was before current lifestyle began). After not getting pregnant for 6 years (as well as some medical reasons) I assumed, along with my doctors, that I would never conceive without medical intervention.

That brings us to July. I switched from the regular birth control pill to the kind where I’d only have a period 4 times a year. There were a few weeks during the transition where I did not take any pills. We weren’t playing with anyone at the time so I didn’t even think to take other precautions with my husband since there was no way I’d get pregnant in my mind.

I didn’t find out until 10/31 that I was indeed knocked up. The thought hadn’t even crossed my mind until there was no period at the end of the three months of new pills like there should have been. I took a home test on that fateful Halloween evening, and got the scare of my life. Positive. Tested again the following morning and it was positive again.

I went to the doctor Monday afternoon and the blood test confirmed that I wasn’t just pregnant, but very pregnant (meaning much more than a few weeks along). Turned out I was 17 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby.

How did I not know I was pregnant? Well, I never got the nausea most women experience. I was tired all the time starting in July, but I just thought it was because we’d just moved house and I was tired from that. Followed by me having H1N1 in early October; basically I always had a legitimate excuse to be tired. My boobs did really hurt, but that was one of the side effects listed on the new birth control pills I was taking. They REALLY hurt, too. Jack kept commenting on how big they were, but I hadn’t noticed a real change until I looked at a picture of myself naked and compared it to older such pictures. MUCH bigger, and I was already quite large in that department.

So, now I’m 22 weeks along and I’m still trying to figure out how the hell I’m going to be a mother. Even though I’m 32 and married I still feel like the teenager who finds herself knocked up in high school.

Overall, I’m super happy this is happening. Don’t get me wrong, I always wanted a child…..someday. I just thought that we should wait until I have the sort of employment where I can get maternity leave. Self-employed, freelance musicians certainly do not get anything of the sort.

This is, for lack of a better word, a miracle. The look on Jack’s face when he looks at me now is amazing. He’s soooo thrilled to be a father. He’s been ready for a really long time.

Seeing the baby on the ultrasound screen was an experience I can’t even describe. We saw it moving around. They printed out some 3-D pictures of the baby’s face as well as another 2-D picture of the bottom of it’s foot! How cute!

I’m stunned by what my body is doing. I can feel the baby moving around. It usually feels like gentle pokes like if someone were tapping you on your arm to get your attention. But starting today the baby started poking me with some bony appendage. That’s a bit annoying and I know it will only get “worse” the bigger the baby gets.

So, there you have it. I got myself knocked up by Jack (and it’s MOST DEFINITELY Jack’s baby, stop thinking that, people!!! lol). I’m due in April. We have tentatively decided to stop “playing” especially with new people. We might see D again for some basically vanilla fun, but no V or anyone else. We may change our mind, but my sex drive has sort of hidden itself behind all this mommy/hormone crap.

Can you even imagine Jack and Mia being parents!??!?

I would have rather….

I would have rather stayed in bed with Jack and just played all morning. Instead he got up and went to work before I even woke up. It’s yucky weather outside and I’d much rather be in bed playing with his cock.

Last night he masturbated for me. I was too tired for sex, but his cock was hard and ready to go after I was playing with it. He was fantasizing about a bunch of men just cumming all over me without even touching me. I’m torn about this fantasy because I like to be submissive, but I like to be touched, too! Just being a cum receptacle doesn’t turn me on, but if Jack or D MADE me do it that would be hot. Now, if all the men fucked me or if I sucked their cocks or even just touched their cocks then having them cum all over me would be really hot. I do really like to watch men touch themselves…..especially in person. Seeing how they touch themselves when they are alone just gets me going for some reason.

I have to drive to go to work today…longer than my usual daily commute of 45 min. Today I have to drive 100 minutes in each direction…..in the rain…..when I’m horny. Let’s hope I don’t go off the road!

New post.

There is a new addition to the post below.

Four is sometimes fun.

Ok, where to start. Guess the beginning is as good a place as any. We got to their new apartment a little after 6pm last night. We sat down had a glass of wine and basically caught up. We hadn’t seen them since we had coffee last spring.

After we had chatted for about 30 minutes we decided to go to the bedroom. D tied Mrs. D to a chair. Then he took off my glasses, which is how he starts every session with me. He kissed me then took my clothes off. He had me kneel on hands and knees on the bed so that my ass was facing the chair. He started spanking my ass and pussy while also opening up my pussy lips so she could see my cunt.

He spanked me until I started to feel like I needed to stop, but again he always seems to know when to change things up. He flogged my back and ass with the really heavy flogger that I sooooo love. While he spanked and flogged me he would stick his fingers inside my cunt to get them wet (because it really turns me on to get spanked like that) then forced his fingers into her mouth and made her lick them clean.

Then he fucked me while his new wife watched. I had forgotten just how good his cock feels inside me. I had my first orgasm with his cock inside me.

Next he untied Mrs. D and put her face in my pussy. D had me lay down on the bed on my back and he forced her to lick me while he fucked her from behind. He also came up and shoved his cock in my mouth.

Too tired to continue tonight…..will write more tomorrow.

CONTINUED HERE:

I would have done this earlier tonight, but our internet went down for a few hours.

The rest of the night was kind of a blur because it was basically the four of us just doing whatever felt good. I’ll just recount things that happened, but I don’t know the order anymore…..was too turned on at the time!

At one point D had me straddle his wife’s face so she could lick me as he got behind me and fucked me. Jack came and shoved his cock in my mouth. That was the first time I’ve been licked and fucked at the same time. Jack’s cock in my mouth was the icing on the cake. I could suck his cock for hours!

I was laying on my back next to Mrs. D on her back while D alternated fucking one of us while groping and kissing the other or fucking our faces while fingering the other. He played with our tits, sat in Mrs. D’s face (that’s a huge turn on for her), kissed us, licked our clits, made us kiss some more. Jack licked both of us, fucked me, Mrs. D and I both sucked his cock. Jack didn’t participate as much as he would have because he’s still coughing and gets winded very easily (getting over the flu). But he did take pictures.

When D finally decided to cum he shot it all over Mrs. D and I. It was really hot!!!!! That was it.

I got fucked so much (by both guys) that my pussy is sore. It was so nice to see D again. I think I was worried how things would change after he got married. I had nothing to worry about. It was even more fun having her there, too. He still paid just as much attention to me. I never felt left out or awkward. As many of you know, I don’t really like women in general. I have few female friends and pretty much just think all women are bitches – including me. I really like Mrs. D. Not only was the sex part fun, I like just chatting with her. D is sooooo much happier now. She’s really good for him.

After we all put our clothes on we sat back down and had some drinks while Mrs. D made dinner. She served us the tastiest quiche. She just whipped it up. I couldn’t believe it. Apparently she is a really good cook. I look forward to enjoying more of her cooking and friendship. Their new apartment is only a few blocks away from where I teach lessons.

D got married, and his wife is hot.

I just got home from a wonderful evening with D and his wife, Mrs. D. They have been married for about a month, moved into a new apartment, and we finally got to see them! I’m sore, well fucked, and well fed. That chick can cook! I’m not going to write about the evening yet because Jack wants to fuck me again and I’m tired. Wah! No, just kidding. I’d never turn him down after an evening like that. He didn’t get to cum yet so I am going to take care of him even though my pussy is freaking sore!

More later…..comments will encourage me.

I came 5 times.

I just came 5 times on V’s cock. Jack was at a friend’s house playing nerd games so he told me to invite V over for some naked fun.

V arrived at about 9:00 and I was a huge mess of nerves before he got here. However, once he walked in my door and kissed me I was at ease again. We went into the bedroom and kissed some more until I helped him out of his jeans and underwear. I got on my knees and started sucking his cock. I know I said this last time, but he has a great cock. So big and well shaped. He smells good and tastes good.

After I got him really big and hard he lay me down on the bed and kissed me some more before putting a condom on. When he finally went to slide his cock in my pussy he couldn’t get it in. I’ve never had this experience before….. he actually had to finger me a bit to open me up enough to fit in my pussy! Once got his cock in me and started fucking me I got really wet and it wasn’t almost painfully tight anymore – just really nice and full.

He played with my tits and kissed me while he moved his cock in and out of my pussy. It took a little while, but I did cum on his cock. After I came he laid down on the bed beside me and pulled me close and kissed me for a really long time. We sort of made out for a few more minutes and he was asking me about some pictures I had sent him. They were from the sort of gang bang I had two years ago with D. I told him about that night and he got really turned on. He asked me to tell him about the first time I got tied up so I told him about the first time with D. When I said, “It was the first time a man hit me.” His eyes got really big and he looked a little scared, and said, “he hit you?” I explained that I like that sort of thing, but it’s not a necessary part of sex for me. I just like it sometimes and with some people.

I sucked his cock again and he had me get on my hands and knees so he could fuck me from behind. I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this on here before, but that is my FAVORITE position. It’s easiest for me to cum that way and it just feels soooooooo good. His cock was rock hard because he had also put on a cock ring. I came four more times from his cock. He was telling me to cum on his cock and that just turned me on so much. He was scratching my back and giving me (very, very gentle) spanks and just ramming his cock in my pussy. At one point he pulled out of me to adjust something and exclaimed at how much pussy juice was dripping out of me. Yeah, I get really wet when I cum like that….

After my legs could no longer support me I sort of fell over and he lay on top of me and kissed me and touched me for a long time until I had to get some water or die! lol.

I came back to the bed and we drank water then he was all over me again. I like kissing him. So different from anyone else I’ve ever made out with. He uses his tongue very judiciously. So that when he does put his tongue in my mouth it’s almost like a rare treat or something. Ok, that sounded weird, but it is a teasing sort of thing and it turns me on.

I took the condom off his cock and started sucking him again. I could smell my pussy on his balls. That was kind of hot. He started stroking his cock so he could cum, and asked me where I wanted it. This time I told him to cum in my mouth. I had my hand on his balls and my lips on the head of his cock while he stroked it and then shot a HUGE load in my mouth. I had to swallow twice because my mouth started to overflow! I licked and sucked his cock until I got all the cum. I kept playing with it while pulled me up to kiss me some more. I think he liked tasting his cum on my tongue.

After that we laid there just sort of touching each other for a while and started talking about music stuff. Eventually I went to get my laptop so he could show me a band on you tube that I hadn’t heard of. We nerded out about music for a bit. I showed him some of the stuff by the composer I’m writing my dissertation about. It was fun (and useful, actually) to explain this guy to someone new.

He had to get going because he was supposed to meet some friends so he put his clothes on and I started walking him to the door, but we ended up making out some more in the living room and my clothes came off again, but he managed to get out the door before I demanded a round two.

Introducing V.

I’ve finally found a new friend. I’m calling him V. He’s 40 and from a town relatively nearby. I met him on AFF….that site rarely works, but this time it did. He’s a musician like me, but he performs a somewhat different type of music. We have long conversations about all sorts of things. Not just sex. I enjoy being able to get to know him more than just for sex. And, speaking of sex, that part is fucking hot. This is just a vanilla guy, but that’s what I was looking for.

We’ve only met once – last weekend. Jack and I met him at a bar where we all chatted for about an hour before my nerves calmed down enough. Then we went back to our place.

We went into the bedroom and V and I stood at the end of the bed. He’s a lot taller than me (which I’ve said before totally turns me on) so I had to tilt my head up to look at his face. He took my face in his hands and kissed me. It was electric! Who knew I was a sucker for such a normal move? lol We kissed for a bit and our clothes started coming off. I could feel his cock getting hard as we stood there and he put my hand on it. Loved that move, too.

We were touching and kissing some more and he laid me down on the bed where he lay on top of me and kissed me. Then he lay down and I started sucking on his cock. Oh wow was that a surprise because I had no idea how big his cock was. I had seen pictures and a video of him jerking off, but I still hadn’t gotten an idea of how big it actually was. As it continued to grow in my mouth I could barely open my jaw enough to keep sucking deeply. He has a tasty cock and big heavy balls. I was in heaven.

While I sucked on V’s cock Jack had me get on all fours and he started playing with my pussy. At one point he put the hitachi on me and it was such a surprise I actually screamed! lol He stopped that and then just fingered me until I came.

Next V and Jack switched places so I was sucking Jack’s cock and V was getting ready to fuck me. Unfortunately V hasn’t had much recent experience with using condoms so he ended up not staying hard enough to fuck me (you’d be surprised how often this happens!!!! It happens to EVERY guy—–you should all practice with condoms guys! It will make us ladies a lot happer and less neurotic). V did finger me, very skillfully, to orgasm. He definitely knows his way around a pussy.

Next Jack had me lay at the end of the bed on my back so he could fuck me. V knelt next to my head and fucked my face and played with my tits. I was sooooo turned on at that point. I can’t remember how many times I came, but it was great. At one point I lost the ability to breathe due to the cock in my mouth and the balls on my nose. lol

We switched it up then and I sucked V’s cock until my neck hurt. He gave me a very nice neck rub.

The evening ended with him standing over me and jerking off while I played with his balls. He kept asking where I wanted him to cum and I just sort of said all over me. He shot a HUGE load all over my face, tits, and stomach. I licked and sucked the last bit of cum out of his cock. Then Jack, who was also jerking off standing over me, added his load to my chest.

I was so covered in cum and feeling good. We cleaned up and put our clothes back on. I had to work early the next morning so it was time to call it a night. I kissed V goodbye and Jack and I sat and talked about how it went. All in all it was satisfying evening, and I’m looking forward to another hot night with V.

More housewifery -OR- Procrastination

There’s no food in this house! Ok, not completely true, but I am going to go grocery shopping. So as to not completely turn into an actual housewife I am not wearing sweats to the store. I’m wearing a tank top that’s tight in all the right places and some cute little jeans. Those bitches will be looking at me in horror because I’m looking so good and they look like dumpy bitches with dirty sweatshirts on. (can you tell I HATE women that don’t even try to look good????!)

I had a good chat with a possible new friend last night. I think I mentioned it in yesterday’s post, but we talked until almost 11:30, which is really late for me these days. We talked mostly music stuff, but then it took a turn towards sex. I bowed out before it got too steamy….I was getting sleepy. I guess it’s good to keep them wanting more, right?

Gotta keep it up.

I have to keep posting so that it becomes a habit again. Jack’s meeting a new girl on Friday night. We’ll see if anything comes of it. I’m excited for him. Hope she won’t be too shy. I’ve been chatting with a few new prospects, too. One is a musician, but not the same type as me. It’s still interesting how much we have in common considering we live and work in different worlds.

Jack came home for lunch and we fucked again. It was so incredible neither of us could move for a few minutes after. Then I got all housefwifey and made him some lunch to eat before he had to go back to work. Love putting a smile on that man’s face!

Old friends.

After work today I went to a friend’s house for a visit. A mutual friend of ours was in town and I hadn’t seen her in a year so I agreed to stop by. I’ve written about this girl before. She was the one Jack and I almost played with, but decided not to because she was a friend first. Anyway, we didn’t part on the best of terms last summer. She had a break down of sorts and decided to drop out of school and move back home a few states away. She had been having money problems and in January 2008 we lent her $500. We set out a payment plan and made sure she knew that she had to pay us back. She made a few payments then just gave up. It turns out she didn’t really need the $500 and that she actually went and bought a blackberry and a coach purse with it. We thought we were helping her buy a car after her old one bit the dust. Found out later that she also didn’t need the new car either….simply wanted it. That’s just a small bit of the shit she pulled before moving away. She and I had been very close at one point, but we never talk anymore. Smoking was also involved because she was one of my excuses to be allowed to smoke. Jack would let me have one or two a night when I was with her. And we all know how that all played out……

She seems to have her head on straight again and perhaps she’s working her way through her money problems. I didn’t mention the money she owes me; she brought it up. She wanted my new address so she could make some payments after she goes home. Let’s just say that I’m not holding my breath.

So, I’m sitting there chatting with her and catching up on the past year. The whole time I’m just feeling incredibly uncomfortable and nervous. I can’t remember if that’s how I used to feel around her all the time or if it was new this time. I just kept staring at her cigarettes sitting on the table. I’m proud to say that I wasn’t even tempted to smoke one. I did WANT one, but I knew I wasn’t going to smoke. I’ll never smoke another cigarette because that’s what Jack wants. It’s a logical decision to make since cigarettes are only bad for me. There’s nothing good about them. I’d rather have Jack in my life than continue to contribute to my own death like that.

Sorry for the lack of sex here. Jack is playing nerd games at a friend’s house so I’m home all alone tonight. I soooooo need a friend to play with here!