I feel like crap. No, I don’t have a cold or anything like that. I just feel like I can’t do anything. I’m stuck inside my head and I can’t get out. I feel like I live in a different world than the rest of humanity. I need a vacation!!!!!!!!!!

I’m not doing well. I had a panic attack today. From the outside there is no reason for me to have a difficult life. I have everything I need. But for some reason I feel like a complete and utter failure. I can usually keep things together, but right now I just feel like letting go and seeing what happens.

I need a job!!!!! Anyone out there on a hiring committee at a university?