I’ve been chatting with D today. After not really catching him online all weekend I was starting to wonder if he had changed his mind about us meeting on Wednesday. He’s great to talk to. We’ve talked about lots of different topics, and yet not much about sex or the possibility of him dominating me. He seems very experienced and yet we haven’t talked much about it since we laid out all the rules last week.

I’m trying very hard not to get my hopes up about this though. But it’s hard. I want it to work out. I want to be able to know what it’s like to give myself over to an almost complete stranger and just trust him and not get hurt. My husband will be with me so I’m not worried about getting hurt….permanently that is.

I just don’t want to be rejected again.